Allow me to introduce myself
I am a man whose present circumstances are causing him to re-evaluate the worth of his sacrifices and accomplishments to date, and to question his belief in the power of hard work and a good education.
It is said that a belief in God provides comfort to the faithful in their times of need. For me, my comfort was a picture of a life with the financial stability to do and buy the things I want, rather than limiting myself to what I need.
Education was to be my path out of poverty and I endured a soul-crushing campaign of bullying at both primary and secondary school, all the while telling myself that I need to play the long game and concentrate on doing well. Success would mean the end of just surviving.
The time I can look back on as having some measure of financial stability I was doing a job that had no prospects for promotion, working in a context where I often felt marginalized, and occasionally having to negotiate my humanity. Each time I question my decision to improve my situation with further education, the bitterness wells up inside me, for I cannot help but notice the irony in my present intermittent feelings of marginalisation.